038/365: WANDERLUST

Yes. I’ve been absent. Shouldn’t you all be used to it by now? (I’m actually super sorry about that…)

Microbiology is starting to get bad…like real bad. If that wasn’t enough for this summer. Kelsey (you all remember… yes?), well, she miscarried two weeks before her due date. So yes, she still had to deliver the baby. It was just so emotional for everyone. I’ve had people coming up to me all week asking what happened and how she’s doing. I’m so tired of going to the hospital in fear for my friends. I’ve never gone to the hospital as much as I have since summer has started. It’s been quite hell to be honest.

I’ve missed taking pictures. I just wasn’t motivated to take any. It’s hard to be motivated when so much is happening.

Happy Friday Everyone. Enjoy you’re weekend. I’ll be stuck in a microbiology lab manual till Wednesday!

— Maeghen

037/365

Julz and I took pictures yesterday. They really didn’t last long. But, at least we got to catch up.
For all of those who don’t know who Julz is… she’s been my best friend since Kindergarten. She’s always been there. We don’t really talk as much as we use to, but still talk. It’s nice to catch up every now and then.

— Maeghen

036/365: Life

I just want to take a second and vent.

Our whole lives we’re taught that we need to pursue our dreams and to do what we love. Yet, the minute I decide that I am finally finding my way and wanting to pursue what I love, I suddenly get questioned because I’ve decided I don’t want to do nursing?

I understand that nursing has the money, stability, and the ability to move wherever whenever, but I don’t think I’m up to doing the job of what nurses do and I feel like I’d be miserable day in and day out. I also understand that photography has no money in it and hardly any stability, but it makes me happy and I’m falling in love with my creative side.

What I don’t understand is that I’ve only added the art major. I haven’t quit nursing (granted, I truly think that’s the way it’s going to go…). However, it’s still in the cards and I’m not giving up on it. I just want opitions. The likelihood  of me making it into the nursing program with the TEAS score that I received is nonexistence. So, isn’t it a good idea to also pursue another dream while I wait until I can do nursing?

It’s funny. I have a lot of parents at my work. They do all sorts of jobs from owning their own business to a famous dad who had a country hit (that I think is awesome) to nurses. I’ve talked to the nurses and they’ve all been very persistent. I’ve listened. I’ve tried to wrap my head around the idea… and I just can’t. I can’t see myself doing that, at least… not anymore. But, I can see myself being happy and pursing a creative outlet.

I want to be known for my photography. I want my teachers to see what I’ve done with my life and be proud and to be able to say that they taught me years ago. I want my family to be proud of me. I realize I have a ways to go, but I’m ready for the journey.

I’ve tried to come to the idea of having the life that everyone has dreamed for me, but I’m finally ready to start the life that I’ve dreamed of.

PS. This is 100th post. Maybe it’s a sign. (;
PSS. I’ve moved some pages around. You’ll find my “favorite” pictures in my About Me page

— Maeghen

035/365

Why is it not normal to do what you love anymore?

So, I told people at work about the fact that I added Art as a major. Most of them looked at me like I was half crazy. I understand that I need a job that is stable, but please have faith in me. Please.

My mom is on an accessory and decorating run now. She ordered these from amazing and apparently has more coming in. I actually really like the bicycle. I only wish I knew someone who had a newborn (this weekend before mom puts a plant in it…). I just think a newborn would just look adorable cuddle up in it. And, the fountain is pretty much so mom can watch the cats play in the water…

— Maeghen

034/365: Where in the World…

Yesterday, I started actually planning a shoot.

Words cannot express how I’m excited am. I can’t wait to show it with you all and I only hope it comes out EXACTLY how I see it in my head. Until then, I’ll leave this… and maybe you all can figure out what the shoot is gonna be! (;

— Maeghen

033/365: Vulnerable

It’s been an emotional roller coaster of a day and it’s only 2:55 PM.

I was suppose to sign up to take my second nursing TEAS test for Friday. Guess what? I ran out of time. I procrastinated. It says the teas for this Friday is full. I felt nothing but immediate dread. My mom was going to kill me. I thought nothing but negative thoughts of how she would say she’s disappointed in me for waiting, for not being on top of it.

But, no. She actually listened to me. We decided that I’ll take the TEAS in the fall, and until then, I’ll finish up anatomy 2 and do art classes. Did you hear that? She said I can take art classes and apply to the art program. I’ll just be doing a double major.

I’ve never been more excited to go to school the Fall. I get to do art classes and hopefully get into the program at my school.

I’m. So. Ecstatic.

Anyways, I thought I’d actually be good on my 365 and actually post today. Just a quick shot to show you all how short my hair is. It’s weird. I miss my long hair. COMEEE BACKKK.

— Maeghen

032/365: It feels like a perfect night… to dress up like hipsters

I’ve actually spent the day studying… well, sort of. My friend and I met up at Starbucks to start our studying. It ended up being more of me sitting there and taking pictures and she was getting the stuff that she needed to get done. Anyways, so I went to get a smoothie and I was taking pictures… and I got yelled at. To be honest, I don’t mind being told not to take pictures, I just truly wish she wouldn’t have been so rude and yelled at across the entire store. Once I got my smoothie, I decided to google if you’re allowed to take pictures in Starbucks. Guess what? There has actually been a huge case about it.

So, just know next time you’re wanting to feel like a hipster in Starbucks… you may get asked to stop (being so cool).

Oh, these are the pictures I got before getting yelled at… and after we moved outside. (:

I also got a hair cut today. Maybe within the next few days I’ll share it with you all! 😉

— Maeghen

031/365

I’ve come to a conclusion.

My most creative ideas come to me when I need to study. Yup. I said it. It’s funny how that works isn’t it? For instance, two weeks ago.. I had my first microbiology test (didn’t do good on it…) but I went out and took pictures for God knows how long…

Today? Same. Exact. Thing.

I just can’t help that right when I start studying is right when my creative side says.. NOPE.

Enjoy the levitation. It’s my first time truly attempting one. Not half bad if you ask me. Hopefully more in future!

— Maeghen

030/365

I didn’t end up taking a lot of pictures at Kelsey’s baby shower… but it’s theme was Lion King! (:

I’m starting to question nursing more and more. It’s getting annoying.

— Maeghen

029/365: Mornin’ Flare

The only good thing about having 8AM classes during the summer is the beautiful sunrises I get to see every Monday and Wednesday morning. I personally feel like the past two days have been a little bit of advancement in my photography and editing. I’m a little excited (:

Happy Friday everyone! Enjoy you’re weekend. I know I will be. Kelsey’s baby shower is on Saturday (:

— Maeghen