038/365: WANDERLUST

Yes. I’ve been absent. Shouldn’t you all be used to it by now? (I’m actually super sorry about that…)

Microbiology is starting to get bad…like real bad. If that wasn’t enough for this summer. Kelsey (you all remember… yes?), well, she miscarried two weeks before her due date. So yes, she still had to deliver the baby. It was just so emotional for everyone. I’ve had people coming up to me all week asking what happened and how she’s doing. I’m so tired of going to the hospital in fear for my friends. I’ve never gone to the hospital as much as I have since summer has started. It’s been quite hell to be honest.

I’ve missed taking pictures. I just wasn’t motivated to take any. It’s hard to be motivated when so much is happening.

Happy Friday Everyone. Enjoy you’re weekend. I’ll be stuck in a microbiology lab manual till Wednesday!

– Maeghen

037/365

Julz and I took pictures yesterday. They really didn’t last long. But, at least we got to catch up.
For all of those who don’t know who Julz is… she’s been my best friend since Kindergarten. She’s always been there. We don’t really talk as much as we use to, but still talk. It’s nice to catch up every now and then.

– Maeghen

036/365: Life

I just want to take a second and vent.

Our whole lives we’re taught that we need to pursue our dreams and to do what we love. Yet, the minute I decide that I am finally finding my way and wanting to pursue what I love, I suddenly get questioned because I’ve decided I don’t want to do nursing?

I understand that nursing has the money, stability, and the ability to move wherever whenever, but I don’t think I’m up to doing the job of what nurses do and I feel like I’d be miserable day in and day out. I also understand that photography has no money in it and hardly any stability, but it makes me happy and I’m falling in love with my creative side.

What I don’t understand is that I’ve only added the art major. I haven’t quit nursing (granted, I truly think that’s the way it’s going to go…). However, it’s still in the cards and I’m not giving up on it. I just want opitions. The likelihood  of me making it into the nursing program with the TEAS score that I received is nonexistence. So, isn’t it a good idea to also pursue another dream while I wait until I can do nursing?

It’s funny. I have a lot of parents at my work. They do all sorts of jobs from owning their own business to a famous dad who had a country hit (that I think is awesome) to nurses. I’ve talked to the nurses and they’ve all been very persistent. I’ve listened. I’ve tried to wrap my head around the idea… and I just can’t. I can’t see myself doing that, at least… not anymore. But, I can see myself being happy and pursing a creative outlet.

I want to be known for my photography. I want my teachers to see what I’ve done with my life and be proud and to be able to say that they taught me years ago. I want my family to be proud of me. I realize I have a ways to go, but I’m ready for the journey.

I’ve tried to come to the idea of having the life that everyone has dreamed for me, but I’m finally ready to start the life that I’ve dreamed of.

PS. This is 100th post. Maybe it’s a sign. (;
PSS. I’ve moved some pages around. You’ll find my “favorite” pictures in my About Me page

– Maeghen